A rose and a memory.

The feel of your skin against mine.

Soft.

Warm.

Familiar.

You.

The hug as we part in farewell always last longer than "just friends".  It's our signature.  They way we convince ourselves we're doing the right thing by being apart.  How we tell ourselves to let go this one more time.  Even though it is getting harder and harder to let go.  For us both.

We fit so perfectly together in each other's arms.  Our bodies aligned.  Head to toe.  As if we were made to fit together exactly right every single time we touch.

The urge to reach out and touch you is nearly impossible to resist.  Do you really feel it?  Or am i falling into wishful thinking?  Mayhap i was only dreaming you in the first place...

A desire to be near.

A need to be closer.

A want to be just us.

Only us.

Without the world looking in...

     ...commenting...

     ...persuading...

     ...needing...

     ...talking...

     ...wanting...

     ...provoking...

Us.

Only us.

The world with all it's talk and opinion of what "is" and what "should be" between us.

Do you remember letting the world into us?

Do those shattered pieces of dreams and memories burn you still?

I'm waiting for the silence to come again.  The one you bring and i never have the courage to break.  The silence you need to create because you can't allow the feelings to fill you up.

I know what would happen if you let me fill you with my love...

You would depise yourself because you believe me not good enough for you since i'm not your ideal partner, and you would hate me for loving you so much.

After all, there has to be something, someone better for you, doesn't there?

I believe you deserve so much amazement and fulfillment...
So much more than i can give...

I admit, i settled.
You should never be tamed or tied down.
My baggage is so very heavy...

Will you regret?

Please forgive yourself when i am gone.

After all...
I agreed with your decision...
I let you leave me...
I didn't fight hard enough to keep you...
I was never good enough for you...

Please.  Forgive me.

Forgive yourself.

The sound of your voice took me to the ghosts of memories i have forgotten...

I want to never forget anything about you...
...yet i forget because there is so much time between memories now...

I know you need things to be this way, but maybe you could forgive me when i don't remember something?

I never forget my love for you.  It's part of my soul.  Our memories together are merely details which decorate my love for you.

Memory fades...

In time, all memory fades...

Some day, you will forget to come to me...

Then, i will begin to fade from your memories...

You are my beloved one.

My only beloved.

For all time.